wow,I've revealed quite a lot of myself..
Partly it is right, for how can you pursue your talents if you are buried under anxiety??But I don't think your higher self 'gave' you this anxiety to stop you from pursueing your talents. In fact, quite the opposite, perhapse your higher self gave you these talents to overcome your anxiety??
Thanks for your response
Yes,in fact,I've thought about that as well. Sometimes I'm also confused as to what is going on...because when I thought I hv done all the right things to overcome my anxiety,i realised that it's still there. Hardly ingrained. I've considered seeing a doc and take pills but I don't like its side effects. Chemical inbalance in my head?
May I ask, what is it in other people that causes your anxiety? Do you just worry about their perception of you, or is it you not liking something in them? And what made you realise that this is not the period for your talent to be pursued?
Hi Vesko. Thanks for these questions. It has made me think deeply.
Whenever I'm with people,even with people I know for quite a while, sometimes I'd feel it's just SO HARD to speak whatever I want. Then I lose some control of my whole body and I feel so imbalanced. I have done stuff to improve myself...like going out taking part in activities but soon I began to dislike doing it altogether. I used to be active in them but slowly my interest in them dwindled. I like being alone and sometimes I wonder if i'm an undiagnosed 'partly autistic' person.
Yes,I worry about their perception of me WHEN I'm anxious and NOT ABLE to be myself. It's also tough when they give me the 'evil eye'...or give me any kinds of stares.
It just doesn't feel right because they are so heavily LIVING their active lives,having a job and all that,while me,myself...I'm kinda disconnected from 'life as they know it'...and our vibes just don't merge.
and also...why would I want be the center of attention in pursuing my interests,when being 'center of attention' is something I can't stand? haha.
see? am I just a complete mess or am I living it according to plan?
I'm confused.
It's been a long time now...I just live day to day...having irregular sleeping times..and at times find myself looking out the window,staring at the tree.
All I'm doing now is to wait for a certain period. The '3rd event' I call it. The first was the '911 tragedy',the '2nd' - Tsunami. For the third,I've no idea what its actually going to be...but I could guess its nature. All this from a 'pattern' which I've found in my observations. I know this sounds freakish but I find it surprising when I discovered it. The first 2 events has actually followed this pattern. I don't know what got into me to 'put things together' and come up with that.
Any of you familiar with this site -
http://www.xeeatwelve.com
The articles there interest me a lot.